Thursday, April 4, 2013

A Blessing in the Pain:Something Good has to come out of this....

As my Journey to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I continue with a glad heart just knowing that brighter days are ahead.   I am learning more and more to stop and smell the roses ( see the good things and the blessings that are right in front of me) sometimes it is hard because the Pain on some days are so great...
At the beginning of last week I had to to go to the ER. because It just seemed to be more than I could bear. I waited a  day or so to see if I could handle it or if it was going to get any relief.  I finally went to the doctor by this time my pressure was at an all time high 168/110 was the finally reading when they discharged me..I received some new medications that I had to begin to take immediately....With taking this new medication. I have not been able to function  as my normal self.  I spent the whole week off work in an attempt to get myself back on track.  I need the rest I assume....On Sunday I was able to go to Easter Service with the family....I enjoyed being in the service and hearing the word of which ministered to my situation....The lesson was not the typical Easter Sunday message, but it was a message that was just what ordered by God.  He always knows just what we need and when we need it.  I am so Thankful to God for letting me know that I am not alone and the battle is not mine and in the end something good is coming out of this Pain.   If there is no test there is not Testimony.  I continue to trust God to get me through this.   On Sunday, I was touched like I had not been touched before.  I felt a release in my body.   During the service there was a pain in my upper chest area and down my spine that was causing me a great deal of pain, But before I left it was gone.   I had to  keep moving to try to find it.   I take this as a sign that my total healing is on the way.   I have seen good working in my life in other area and this lets me know that he can and will do it again.  I just have to keep my focus and stay in his will.   If I give in it would be the Devil's good pleasure to see me turn my back on God and what I know is right.  Not gonna happen......
"Pain, Pain go away
You have no place here
My Miracle is near..
No longer will I be sad and fear
As God has wiped away the tear...
You will are no longer welcome in this place
For my peace has come, as it has been scarce...
My Joy is complete for you have been defeated!!!
                                                                                                                                         -L. Ayers, 2013

I would also like to update that I have still been free from drinking Coca-Cola.   It has not been easy, but I am determined to take control of the rest of my life and I am cutting lose everything that is not for me an holding me back.   We are claiming this as the year of "Miracles"  I need a miracle in every area of my life and Patiently waiting on God to work these things out.

They that wait upon the Lord shall renew there Strength
They shall run and not get weary
They shall walk and not faint
Teach me how to wait Lord.

Give me the Strength I needs.   I am trusting you-the only help I know.....