Monday, February 13, 2012

Momma never said there will be days like this.....

I have been having one of the worst days with this Fibromyalgia....There are really no words to describe the way that I feel. I really did not have the strength today anything. On yesterday, I pressed my way to church. It was a struggle to sit through the service as I could only focus on the pain that I was feeling all over my body. I am glad that I was there as I did gain some strenght and was able to stay through the end of service. We had communion and both my daughter and husband ministered in music and both songs did my soul good. Especially the song that my husband sang. He really did sing that song. I found myself sobbing in tears as he sang "give it to the Lord".......It gave me a greater desire to be in the presence of the Lord as I know that is where my help comes from. I have to trust God to give me the healing that I so desperately desire. On yesterday, I could no see pass the pain that I was experiencing....The more I wanted it to go away it appeared the more prevalant it became. I contacted my prayer partner and we prayed together, which was most definitely helpful....yes, I am still in pain on today, but I am looking to him to give me the strength to go on until my healing comes. Some days are harder than others and I just have to keep my focus that it will get better one day at a time. I have to keep to keep the faith. I trust God to give me just what I need and I remind myself that he won't more on me than I can bear.  I know when you see me you don't see the pain that I feel....I want you to know that it is real!!!!!! {Moma never said there would be days like this}

My scripture for today is Psalms 27:4 One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty [2] of the Lord, and to enquire in his temple. 5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock. 6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; [3] I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the Lord.