Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Leavin' it behind: My Help is on the way...

On this past Sunday, I attended service with the family and as usual the spirit of the Lord was there.  I love going to church knowing that I am going to get something that is going to help me through the next week.   Words cannot express the joy that I feel just knowing that he will send a word for the house.   it is truly a blessing to be in the presence of the Lord.  I have to be honest and say that it was very hard for me to get myself together.   I have to press on many days due to the fact that pain is still a part of my day.  I continue to learn how to pace myself and not do so much.   Those that are around me really just don’t understand because there are no visible signs that I am ill or shall I say suffer with a Chronic condition.  
I have a lot of work to do and even on the days that I feel that “it’s my last and that I am on my last leg” God gives me just what I need to keep pressing.   None of the medications seem to work or either the side effects are too much for me to continue taking them so, I have to trust God to give my Healing.  I know that my healing on the way.   God is setting me up for a breakthrough and my healing….Although I cannot see anything different going on in my body.  I am assure that brighter days are ahead.   I am putting my focus on God and watching him work out the rest.   I will not give into the tactics and devices that have been launched against me.   I assure you that I have learned a lot through this process.   This has been one of the hardest things in my life for me to deal with.   Waking up in the morning, unable to move my hands  and the extensive pain that is in my back and  feet.   This Fibromyalgia is no joke.  
Fibromyalgia has taken out the elite, the poor and down trodden….It does not discriminate on its victims.  It attacks in a number of ways and affects each of us differently.   There is also different ways to learn to deal with the condition and try to make it through each day.   I continue to look to God for my strength that I need.   I will continue to give him praise for the small steps and the fact and what he has in store for me.     

May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, Romans 15:5