Thursday, December 1, 2011
I continue to wait for my change to come...days and nights go by and nothing seems to change. I continue to wonder where my life will go from here. I continue to wait patiently for things to change for me and my situation.
As the weather begins to change, I see the changes that begin to happen in my life and my body. On yesterday, I spent a great deal of the day in the hospital getting a series of test ran due to the fact that I could not breathe and was coughing and feeling like I was throwing up my lungs...my blood pressure was up and my heart rate was elevated and nothing seemed to br working to get things leveled out. My pain was at an all time high and I confirmed that "Pain" does not discriminate. I am missing work and wondering will I soon get the pink slip....I worry and worry will I have to give up my career. I am at a point that I have to trust God. He will get me through this. I have to continue to see the light at the end of the tunnel and know that I will have a testimony at the end of my Test.....
I know that he will not leave me alone. I must say that he has never left me and gives me the strength for this journey. I know that many around me do not understand the pain and the suffering that I feel and I must not worry about what they see, put Pray that I can continue to Wait on God for my deliverance....After I have been tried in the fire....I shall come out as pure gold....This is part of my process. I must admit that it gets hard some times.
On last week, we celebrated Thanksgiving and my daughter's 12th birthday. We were able to go eat good with the main course of the dinner prepared by me. My girls help with the desserts and my husband had out Honey Suckle Turkey smoked and it was " Slap your momma good". On saturday we had a girls day out to celebrate their birthdays at the Rivermarket with nine of their friend girls and they had a blast and I have reprecussions in my body.... I thank God for giving me strength to be able to make these things happen and enjoy these types of activities. I contiue to look for the good and not focus on the way that I feel.
The main point of today is to keep a positive attitude and keep waiting for my change to come.
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their stength. They shall mount on wings as eagles...they shall run and not get weary, they shall walk and not faint Isaiah 40:31 Lord help me to wait. Psalms 27:14 Wait on the Lord Be of Good courage and he shall strenghten thine heart: wait I say on the LORD..