Friday, September 16, 2011

God is in charge!!!!

In the fight for my life.....

At the end of another week  and I feel like I have just been run over by an 18 wheeler truck.....but I can not quit.  If I quite, I  will not be able to complete my assignment and therefore I fail.   I am not a failure.   In him do I move and breath.   I am continuously trusting God to get me through each day. I can say that I am here and it is by the grace of good.   If I could sing that is the song that I would sing.  But I try  to operate in my gift and singing is not one of my gifts.   I  am daily trying to understand this journey that I am now taking and to this point I can only see that it is for a testimony.   Let me explain what I mean by this.    By saying that is for a testimony, I mean that I am being tested to see if I will continue to be faithful to God.   He wants to know that we will give him our all no matter the test.   He want to know if I will believe him to give me the relief that I so desperately need.    The woman with the issue of blood suffered for 12 long years, but in the end she was healed through her faith... can you imagine her pressing her way through the crowd trying to get to Jesus.   Saying excuse me , excuse me....she knew in her heart, if she could just get to Jesus that she could get just what we need from the Lord and that is where I am now.   I realize that I can not let anything keep me from getting to Jesus.   I have to press to get to him.   He has my healing in his hands.   I will be healed and one day I will tell the story of deliverance to someone that is going through pain and suffering.   I also realize that the pain not be physical (fibromyalgia) like mine, but they may be suffering in some area of there lives that I will be able to tell them that God can bring you through whatever giants they are facing in their lives.   Remember that God is in charge and he has your best interest in mind.    I must say that I am learning to lean and trust in him.   He is my help.....

Blessed be the Lord my strength, which teacheth my hands to war and my fingers to fight, my goodness and my fortress; my high tower, and my deliver,my shield and he whom I trust; who subdued my people under my feet.     Psalms 144-2 KJV